happy as larry

" if the world hates you, remember it has hated me first"

i made myself watch the passion of the christ on monday.
usually i cant stand anything that graphic but
every whip, every blow i forced myself look.
because i knew i needed to understand the weight that was attached to what he did for me.
i watched him suffer and
suddenly empty words were filled with power.
things i had been taught all my life became meaningful.
he didn't just die for me.
he went through hell and went to hell for me.

every punishment he took, i deserve.

his grace gives us what we don't deserve
and his mercy sets us free from what we do deserve.