to be or not to be?

i have the opportunity to go to cambodia with my uncle this year.

sooo keen.

her value far above rubies or pearls

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

1 Peter 2v9

..i actually cannot wait for my princess wedding.

its a rap.

Yeah, they talk. Yeah, they talk.
They don't walk the walk I walk.

I won't stop, 'til I drop.

Until then, I reach the top.

I'ma rock to where I need to be.

Walk the path of destiny.

Definitely been neglected, but God is always testin' me.

Rest in peace to all the men that died that were protecting me.

Objectively, I need to tell you what just gets the best of me.

Essentially, people in this world just wanna let it be.

A lot of men ain't different though, just let it be.

Set it free.

Never be scared to make change, effectively.

Always look at things from different ways, perspectively.

Every person in this world can do good.

I just want this message understood.

Alright.. stop.

Everybody's gotta listen.

Make the decision to envision

a better place with no division.

Religion.

Everybody needs a mission.
Haters need to stop it, just listen.

a process of thoughts

i love reading peoples blogs. i enjoy that all the ones i follow are different. sometimes i say to myself "flip thats one quality post". then i try to work out what it is about it that makes it so quality. somtimes, its just one picture, sometimes i just genuinely like the topic but most of the time i like it because it makes me think.

i used to tell myself i think to much.

but then i realised that its through our thoughts that we get close to god.

its through our thoughts that we gain knowledge.

its through our thoughts that we create.

everything comes from a thought.

everything surrounding you right now, started with a thought.

bek burke was laughing at my blog the other day. she said its lol cos i never talk like that.

of course i defended myself and said i always talk like that.

and i do. but not to people, to myself.

i write the way i think.

"me and justin bieber will be married"

" if the world hates you, remember it has hated me first"

i made myself watch the passion of the christ on monday.
usually i cant stand anything that graphic but
every whip, every blow i forced myself look.
because i knew i needed to understand the weight that was attached to what he did for me.
i watched him suffer and
suddenly empty words were filled with power.
things i had been taught all my life became meaningful.
he didn't just die for me.
he went through hell and went to hell for me.

every punishment he took, i deserve.

his grace gives us what we don't deserve
and his mercy sets us free from what we do deserve.

lol.

hahahaha

benjamin james: good boy for mummy.

poo.

i walked past a crumbled building yesterday.

it had a six foot high fence around it keeping the public out.

tied to the fence, were several bunches of dead flowers.

my heart was tormented by the fact that two months ago, this was were someone had died.

within 3o seconds somebody's life had ended.

right where i was standing.

i stood there for several minutes staring at the flowers on the fence.

and up until that moment, the reality of the fact that my city, my beloved city had faced disaster had never sunken in.

these kinds of fences are everywhere.

people walk past them everyday.

1.

i am a big fan of coconut chocolate.

2.

i really enjoy english.

3.

i like row boats. white ones.

4.

i am not that funny.

5.

i wouldn't mind being a bus driver.

6.

karly ryder is officially part of the family.

7.

i like being tall.

8.

embracing awkwardness is a talent i have.

9.

i wish i knew karate

10.

sheldon cooper is the man.

11.

i cannot read fast.

12.

smiles will never be overrated.

13.

i am already registered for getsmart.

14.

one year bible is changing my life.

15.

i really really really miss the city.

16.

my favourite number is 7.

17.

sticky stars duets is ma mains.

18.

hide your kids. hide your wife.

19.

i like babies.

20.

lowkey pumped that i'm not going to eastercamp.

21.

i hate glee.

22.

i will never ever get a stretcher. or a belly button piercing.

23.

i wish i could play piano real good.

24.

i like the little house next door. i'm going to buy it one day.

25.

i like adele and annabell fay

26.

i want to own a swan.

27.

thirst is creepy.

28.

two of the most unlikely people have earned my respect: bruno mars and justin bieber

29.

i haven't had a pie in days

30.

i love letters.

31.

"does his mum know hes doing that"

32.

talking is not something i am good at these days.

33.

i want to play the saxophone.

34.

the song butterfly kisses always reminds me of dad.

35.

i want a cool laugh.

36.

it would have been cool to live in victorian days.

37.

i actually appreciate shakespeare.

38.

i want a house with legit shutters.

39.

i like winter.

40.

i hate tv.

41.

"mmm yeah these are definitely a buy"

42.

my appreciation for people has enlarged.

43.

im still going because i want to go to 50. i cant handle unlegit numbers.

44.

i already want my fringe to grow out.

45.

there is a difference between time and quality time.

46.

random is good.

47.

i am enjoying constantly having company

48.

im addicted to tiny wings

49.

french toast is my fave.

50.

if you are still reading this, you are a gay.

has it ever occurred to you that nothing can actually occur to God.

because he already knows everything.

reboot.

there are three reasons why you may need to reboot your computer:

when it crashes

when it freezes

or when it is struggling to connect to the wireless connection.

sometimes, in life, we need to uninstall the spirit of unbelief, disappointment and doubt and instead, reinstall a spirit of trust and hope before we allow our system to crash.

over three weeks ago, i heard the voice of god clearer then i have ever heard.

he told me something i really wish he hadn't.

there was not a day where my heart didn't feel so heavy that it could fall out and my mind hadn't been worrying.

i wished i could tell everyone so i didn't have to carry the burden alone.

but i know he told me in order to prepare myself.

however, recently i had been feeling like everything had just hit me and god wasn't sending anything good my way.

i felt incredibly under the weather and at times i lost hope.

virus.

in result, i felt like my connection to God had been cut off.

and this is when i reboot.

and i realise that i never actually was carrying my burden alone.

and that God was looking out for me the whole time.

this is when hope is reinstalled.

r e p e a t e d

v. renewed or recurring again and again

f r u s t r a t i o n

n. a deep chronic sense or state of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs

this is my family.

slash will be my family.

when you are caught in the midst of something you only focus on the 'now'.

a fresh vision for the future comes when you take a step back and look at things the way they could be, when you look at who is really in charge.

normality.

last night was incredible.

i would say it is the best i've ever heard greg preach, the most challenging message i've ever heard, and a night where i was forcibly pushed outside the realm of comfort.

this is my normal now.