vessels.

i dont think there are any words that are even remotely good enough to describe camp.

i am changed.

in previous situations ive gone to things like camps or conferences believing for personal breakthrough. but this time i just asked jesus if he would use me to move in other peoples lives.

he did exactly that.

camp for me, was about stepping out of my comfort zone.

believe it or not, i hate speaking in front of people. but jesus makes me do it all the time.

i guess thats something ive really struggled with, not because i get nervous but more so that im afraid people will judge me. ive had this mindset that people think i like to 'toot my own horn'. but at camp jesus just smashed everything that was holding me back.

i also used to think that i could only make an impact in the lives of people younger than me. but again jesus proved me wrong there.

can i go deeper?

jokes.

but actually.....

god set me up. most of the time i couldnt help but cry at how perfectly everything fitted into place.

even just the fact that jesus used camp to strengthen all my relationships as well as form new ones blows my mind.

god can take tears or laughter and use them to form beautiful friendships.

stealing a packet of tim tams with tenaya and taking our sleeping bags outside to sit on the tramp for a good two hours was definately a memorable moment.

the roady home was great. despite feeling like i could throw up at any minute, i would say i laughed more than any other time in the world. thats a big call, but one i am willing to make.

i can now freestyle. f'showzee.

i miss everyone so much now. bri foote visit me in chch. jess bakes write more blogs. allanah i will come have a teaparty soon.

this blog was too long slash rambly....but im posting it anyway.