whole.

dads wedding was awkward.

there were several times i just wanted to cry, but i held myself together haha

apart from that life is without a doubt thoroughly enjoyable.

last week slash this week im really enjoying not having any plans set in concrete. i just wake up in the morning and decide what the day will bring. its great.

the week end was cute. gean burke never failed to make me laugh. shes amazing. her and janet made a good but ridiculous team.

im pumped for school. like actually-im almost more excited than i was for summercamp. big call.

its beaut having bek burke in christchurch finally.

ps. is lowkey the new word?

ilovetracycullen.

its done

more damage than i thought.

kaleidoscope hearts.

i will look at him through one filter.

my heart.

p.s. freaking out about saturday.

vessels.

i dont think there are any words that are even remotely good enough to describe camp.

i am changed.

in previous situations ive gone to things like camps or conferences believing for personal breakthrough. but this time i just asked jesus if he would use me to move in other peoples lives.

he did exactly that.

camp for me, was about stepping out of my comfort zone.

believe it or not, i hate speaking in front of people. but jesus makes me do it all the time.

i guess thats something ive really struggled with, not because i get nervous but more so that im afraid people will judge me. ive had this mindset that people think i like to 'toot my own horn'. but at camp jesus just smashed everything that was holding me back.

i also used to think that i could only make an impact in the lives of people younger than me. but again jesus proved me wrong there.

can i go deeper?

jokes.

but actually.....

god set me up. most of the time i couldnt help but cry at how perfectly everything fitted into place.

even just the fact that jesus used camp to strengthen all my relationships as well as form new ones blows my mind.

god can take tears or laughter and use them to form beautiful friendships.

stealing a packet of tim tams with tenaya and taking our sleeping bags outside to sit on the tramp for a good two hours was definately a memorable moment.

the roady home was great. despite feeling like i could throw up at any minute, i would say i laughed more than any other time in the world. thats a big call, but one i am willing to make.

i can now freestyle. f'showzee.

i miss everyone so much now. bri foote visit me in chch. jess bakes write more blogs. allanah i will come have a teaparty soon.

this blog was too long slash rambly....but im posting it anyway.

cheerful.

i think we use the word 'life' so often that it becomes so easy to overlook all of what the word holds in itself, the complete beauty and intensity of it. its crazy to think that this little four letter word can mean so much.

life.

• the memories slash experiences of the past and the prospects of the future
• the ability to live and breathe in a world full of lives.
• existence.
• the ability to be in the presence of God.
• the noun that sums up all the comings and goings, all the ups and downs, all the joys and heartaches of what goes on from the day of your birth to the day that you die.
• something that defines us as people, our personalities our background and status.
• an opportunity to do something great.
• a journey.
• a story.

every single person has been given a life.

a life worth sowing into, a life worth your company, a life with a past and a life with a future, a life that jesus came to die for.

"its not dying we need to be afraid of, its never having lived in the first place"

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the other day i re-discovered the beauty of omegle. i know it sounds gay. but i remembered about it when i was really bored slash procrastinating tidying my room(which i did in fact complete today). Anyway i ended up chatting to a 22 year old whose 5month old daughter died just before christmas. she only wanted someone to talk to. it amazes me how much hope you can bring into someones world just by ceasing an opportunity. her story made me cry but i was able to spread light in her world. it was beautiful.

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my room smells nice at the moment. i like smells. i like the smell of freshly cut grass, the smell of flowers, of fresh air, and the smell of food. i also like when you get a new perfume or spray and its a completely different smell to the one you previously had. i like that when you add a small bit of coriander to a salad it changes the smell entirely. and the taste.

everyone says that over the holidays they eat more crappy food. thats usually the likely story for me but not these holidays. i've found that since i have more time, ive really been enjoying making healthy food. and pottering around experimenting with new flavours.

Nicola Hinman is the best cook i know.

i miss that nutter.

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i enjoy the look of mopped floors. which is probably why i mopped the floor in my room three times today. i enjoy having wooden floor in my room. it means i can spontaneously break out and tap dance.

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i love the knowledge you can gain just by reading. i can almost guarantee that if you read something for the first time, you will learn something new. i wish i was faster at it, i would definitely read heaps if i was. my seven year old cousin started reading novels when she was five. she can now read three books in one day and is one of the most intelligent kids i know. not like intelligent as in brainy but in like world view, her opinions and even the way she talks. i wish i read more when i was a kid. i also wish i had more time slash focus to read. its a beautiful thing.

chloe ruth de'ath

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in the last week ive found a new hobby. i love reading through name books and finding out what names mean. i think its amazing how perfectly suited peoples names are to their personalities. i love the meaning of my name. i wouldn’t swap it for anything else. it matches every word that has been spoken over my life. the meaning of a name is powerful.

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i love dressing little girls up all pretty. the other day i dressed kaela boo up as a princess. we curled her hair and put a pretty necklace on her. she went and picked one of my flower headbands to put on (a lol one the I had made in sewing class in year 7) and found some heels in my wardrobe. It was very important to her that she had a big bow at the back of her lacey dress so we found a random scarf and tied it round her. she pranced round the house as if she was the most beautiful and important thing in the world. then she wanted me to take photos of her ‘in a really pretty place’ so we went out to the garden and she sat on her favourite chair. All the time i was taking photos she was saying ‘don’t i look lovely lissy?’

-the meaning of kaela is adored and cherished.

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i find it very difficult to capture the essence and beauty of the garden of eden with just words. especially when there is no place on earth like it. eden was heaven on earth.

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p.s. everything you learnt by reading this blog, was probably pointless, but at least you learnt it.

p.p.s. i really like this picture.

prilgrimage.

i've learnt so much this year already.

mumford & sons are beaut beaut beaut.

camping with cass made me realise how very important it is to sow into your relationships and treasure them.

i biked 22km on saturday out to pegasus lake and back i just about died but it was all worth it.

god always comes through. ask and you shall recieve.

i like thought provoking things

i bought new spikes yesterday. i feel like such a flash guy wearing them....

heidi baker is a living legend.

im gonna be completely honest, i miss school. no joke, im so excited to go back. the idea of leading project is a tad scary but very very exciting. i know this year will count.

there is only five months till i go to alaska. that is quite exciting.

i realised something about myself, i hate crowds. which is silly because crowds play a massive part in walking with jesus. i can tolerate them but at some point i have to walk away and calm myself. im such a loony.

im just six sleeps away from the best week of my life, lets just say eager anticipation is a schmall understatement.

blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have their hearts set on pilgrimage. psalm 84

dreams.

im so excited for what 2011 will bring.

it is loaded with potential.

miracles.

connections.

summer camp. woo

adam and eve

innocence.

corruption.

orphaned hearts

christchurch.

the foundations on which christchurch were built always blow my mind.

john robert godly was an amazing man.

he saw new zealand as an influential country but a lost country. so he had a vision. a vision for a city that would restore the whole country back to christ. his dream was to build a city where the church was in the heart of the community and the heart of the community was in the church. for years the foundations for the christchurch cathedral stood alone as he could not afford to build the rest. everyone told john it was an impossible project. but he pressed through and in 1904 the cathedral was completed.

vision.

faith.

legend i say

at getsmart james murray told a story about a man had made so much room in his heart for the people of africa that when he died they actually buried his heart in africa.

my heart for christchurch is continuously growing.

flourish.

camping tomorrow.

quality time.

forced relaxation.

one year bible=beautiful

"liss, i dont want to look cool, i just want to look me"

sailing. sunburnt face but a lot of fun.

i enjoy spontaneously jumping off the side of boats for a swim in my clothes.

you dont have to believe it, but i actually have a legitimate tan.

pride.

hope.

the day will come.