security.

"keep me safe inside

your arms like towers"

i like paramore

i've noticed a reoccuring theme in eveyones blogs: quality time with friends.

i need to do more of that. starting tomorrow.

isolation is not fun.

We are light

We were born beautiful

We were meant to be more then these shadows of girls

They cut us down to size

Afraid we'll change the world?

...But we'll fight for your right to be beautiful girls

If every girl could see her beauty,

We would be an army

companionship.

avoidance.

i wish i had more of it

but i do

G.M.

today i stopped a girl from making some very bad choices, just by listening to god and obeying his voice. and i thought pies were satisfying.

trust.

obey.

scream.

even the failed peices are essential.

i can bake a 30 minute brownie in 20 minutes.

this too will shape me.

endless possibilities.

you are not alone.

they do this evetyday at lunch.

rob bell is my hero.

christmas eve is tomorrow.

i love wrapping presents, i wish i had more to wrap.

my dad gets married in a months time. thats an odd thought.

i have a new hobby: going into home slash hardware stores and planning out evey last detail of my future home. if i dont become a councillor when im older i think i'll be an interior decorator. or even a landscaper. that could be fun.

not a day goes past without those words running through my head repeatedly.

i do the same. its not insecurity, just geniune interest and love for people. god made you that way for a reason.

pumped for summer road trips.

greta valley?

ambition.

challenge.

she is beautiful.

...and then i surprised myself

production was beautiful.

being able to perform in front of a packed out aurora centre was such an honour.

carlo and ps annie are amazing.

curly hair is fun

wendys is my fave.

every time i heard ryan's testimony video i cried.

its stories like his that i will go out of my way to be a part of.

enthusiasm.

humbleness.

p.s. i really enjoy christmas carols

put aside. orphaned.

last night was one of the best nights ever.

god places everyone strategically in your life.

last night was made beautiful my one of the people that i am so happy god brought into my world.

ever since my granddad died i had a burning desire to write books. i tried a couple of times, then lost faith in myself, therefore losing inspiration as well. i guess i just put that dream aside and forgot about it. but last night, talking to bri foote, god spoke to me and said now is the time. he gave me the title of the book he wants me to write. i cried a lot because i know it will help people that are similar slash have been through similar experiences to me.

wisdom.

guidance.

when your desire to be true overtakes you and actually transforms your actions, then your reputation of being my daughter will radically change.

im still figuring bits out.

la vie est belle

18 kids+26 costumes=chaos.

i feel honoured.

i like deep things.

it wont work unless we work together.

change.

it amazed me to watch how much the father did for his son. in times of adversity he remained positive. joy is key.

baked not fried.

vision sunday-what can i say?

im very excited for the allnighter but a tad scared for paintball-phil said something about a tiger to human ratio? um...

life is rather beautiful at the moment-im soo pumped for holidays.

19more sleeps.

too much fun.

beaut.

its december. this year has gone so super fast. i often doubt the difference that i can make. but when i look back on the year and see how much god has used me for and the personal journey he has taken me on, it blows my mind. also, i know it sounds gay, but keeping a journal has been one of the best things ive done all year. i go back and read it, seeing all the miracles that have happened in my life, seeing how situations have been resolved and how happy and amazing life can be. i often cry when i read it, for multiple reasons.
i spend alot more time by myself these days. sometimes i hate it, sometimes its just what i need. but ive realised with all this time spent thinking that life is rather complex. the human heart and mind is rather complex. i used to rely on myself to figure it out. but it is vertually impossible.
this is verging on emo-i think ill stop now...