security.

"keep me safe inside

your arms like towers"

i like paramore

i've noticed a reoccuring theme in eveyones blogs: quality time with friends.

i need to do more of that. starting tomorrow.

isolation is not fun.

We are light

We were born beautiful

We were meant to be more then these shadows of girls

They cut us down to size

Afraid we'll change the world?

...But we'll fight for your right to be beautiful girls

If every girl could see her beauty,

We would be an army

companionship.

avoidance.

i wish i had more of it

but i do

G.M.

today i stopped a girl from making some very bad choices, just by listening to god and obeying his voice. and i thought pies were satisfying.

trust.

obey.

scream.

even the failed peices are essential.

i can bake a 30 minute brownie in 20 minutes.

this too will shape me.

endless possibilities.

you are not alone.

they do this evetyday at lunch.

rob bell is my hero.

christmas eve is tomorrow.

i love wrapping presents, i wish i had more to wrap.

my dad gets married in a months time. thats an odd thought.

i have a new hobby: going into home slash hardware stores and planning out evey last detail of my future home. if i dont become a councillor when im older i think i'll be an interior decorator. or even a landscaper. that could be fun.

not a day goes past without those words running through my head repeatedly.

i do the same. its not insecurity, just geniune interest and love for people. god made you that way for a reason.

pumped for summer road trips.

greta valley?

ambition.

challenge.

she is beautiful.

...and then i surprised myself

production was beautiful.

being able to perform in front of a packed out aurora centre was such an honour.

carlo and ps annie are amazing.

curly hair is fun

wendys is my fave.

every time i heard ryan's testimony video i cried.

its stories like his that i will go out of my way to be a part of.

enthusiasm.

humbleness.

p.s. i really enjoy christmas carols

put aside. orphaned.

last night was one of the best nights ever.

god places everyone strategically in your life.

last night was made beautiful my one of the people that i am so happy god brought into my world.

ever since my granddad died i had a burning desire to write books. i tried a couple of times, then lost faith in myself, therefore losing inspiration as well. i guess i just put that dream aside and forgot about it. but last night, talking to bri foote, god spoke to me and said now is the time. he gave me the title of the book he wants me to write. i cried a lot because i know it will help people that are similar slash have been through similar experiences to me.

wisdom.

guidance.

when your desire to be true overtakes you and actually transforms your actions, then your reputation of being my daughter will radically change.

im still figuring bits out.

la vie est belle

18 kids+26 costumes=chaos.

i feel honoured.

i like deep things.

it wont work unless we work together.

change.

it amazed me to watch how much the father did for his son. in times of adversity he remained positive. joy is key.

baked not fried.

vision sunday-what can i say?

im very excited for the allnighter but a tad scared for paintball-phil said something about a tiger to human ratio? um...

life is rather beautiful at the moment-im soo pumped for holidays.

19more sleeps.

too much fun.

beaut.

its december. this year has gone so super fast. i often doubt the difference that i can make. but when i look back on the year and see how much god has used me for and the personal journey he has taken me on, it blows my mind. also, i know it sounds gay, but keeping a journal has been one of the best things ive done all year. i go back and read it, seeing all the miracles that have happened in my life, seeing how situations have been resolved and how happy and amazing life can be. i often cry when i read it, for multiple reasons.
i spend alot more time by myself these days. sometimes i hate it, sometimes its just what i need. but ive realised with all this time spent thinking that life is rather complex. the human heart and mind is rather complex. i used to rely on myself to figure it out. but it is vertually impossible.
this is verging on emo-i think ill stop now...

ornaments.

Current Enjoyments:

Reese's Peanut Butter Cups

Drew Neemia's New Haircut

Doodling

Company

Anastasia

Papaya Body Butter

Sleep

Thinking

The Sun

Singing aloud when no one is Listening

Pointless Walks through Rangiora

Messy Rooms

Time.

..and writing blogs during french.

that is all.

glide.

ive finally learnt to embrace it.

i am constantly realising new stuff about myself. i hate not knowing stuff. going from being the top of my maths class last year to evidently the bottom of the top this year taught me that. i wont be surprised if i fail. on a better note-4 fat excellences in french wahahaha. i also hate that everyones blogs have gone all mysterious on me and i only understand a small bit of them.
actually jokes. i just decided that i like that.

...

i was just reading james5v16 and it really made me realise the importance of having deep and intimate relationships with the people around you.

therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.

life is about the people you surround yourself with.

its been 10 years. too long?

p.s.

p.s.im so flippen pumped for next year! evelates gonna go to the next level, project as well. its like hey there you are only a month and a half away. so is summer camp.
p.p.s. leigh is a skux. make a blog.

life is lol.

i like to think im smart but i honestly do some of the stupidest things sometimes. liiiiike drinking a whole bottle of water during my exam. claaaaasic. but i suppose it has taught me that life is just a big joke-if you dont have things in your world to have a good lol at then you are not experiencing the fullness of life.

you shoulda seen my face..

i love my drama teacher. we are so close anyone would think shes my mother...she dyed her hair ranga just to be like me. well thats what i think anyway-she'll deny it cos theres no favouites allowed..but we all know the truth. anyways she told me shes having a baby today. i wish i could go back in time and video my reaction. im so excited its like im the one having the baby. but im glad im not cos that could get awkward. im gonna have a fat cry when she leaves school now. but i reckon that baby will be the coolest kid in the world. it better be ranga then she could call it larissa. lucky thing.
im gonna invite her to christmas production.

ive changed.

im not a very deep or emotional person now usually. only when i'm left to think about things too much. e.g. when i am sick and have nothing much to do other than lie in bed and think....wahaha.

blog.

blog blog blog. bloggity blog blog blog.

i just read all of my posts..they honest make me cringe so much. most of the time i dont even have much to write so i just ramble. rambling is good. sometimes....

brooke fraser has been playing straight for the last week-its like she actually lives with me. is this awkward? i was just bout to state my favourite songs but then id be naming all eleven. beautiful.

my speech went well on wednesday, i think slash i know it hit home with some girls...even guys have been coming and talking to me about it. my life has taken a dramatic turn since the 17th of October. i cant even begin to explain the pritz-ness of it. haha

just gotta dance hard and keep in time with jesus.

.....thats all this week, im larissa hinman, but i wish i was joy reid.

soo. um. yeah. iis this awkward?

um. im not really sure what to write, i was just in 'the mood'.

im getting baptised tomorrow. stoked about that.

p.s.i remembered one more discovery in wellington that i forgot to mention below: rice crackers taste foul when they expire in feb 2009. that is all.

blessed.

well i just had a beautiful week. i enjoyed just chilling in wellington for no particular reason. But as much as i love it, it made me realise how much i love christchurch (and no thats not just because there are no hills). My heart and passion for my city grew over the last couple of days. I'm so pumped and ready for a great move of God and i don't want to be anywhere else. i intend to stay here. forever.
But i feel so blessed that i can go up to wellington and fit right in. i love that even though arise/elevate stretches over three cities its still one big family. i love it up there. bek burke=pritz. thank you so much for looking after me so well.
anyway while i was in wellington i made several new discoveries. this is when i thank jesus for bullet points:

• wow is amazing.
• bri foote is amazinger-honey and colby are cool too!
• trains are my second favourite form of transport and they also feel slash sound like earthquakes
• satay mi goreng is good but not as good as original
• the warehouse is the best time killer
• hutt elevate is swaz to the days
• burger fuel is beast
• i cannot pronounce maori words very well
• i hate ornaments
• 3d is better than i remembered
• sometimes things will disappoint you e.g. five dollar cord skinnies that dont fit, sweet shoes that dont fit, garlic bread chips that dont taste good and forgetting to go buy a soy hot chocolate
• air new zealand beats the rest. shot guys
• summer camp is going to be legit
• gean burke is amazing
• ruben and jas are definately top ten in my cute kids list. not that i actually have one
• a house costs a lot to furnish
• i can make myself fake cry within five seconds-actually i just discovered that now, not while i was in wellington

so yea all in all, despite a few minor disappointments, it was a beautiful trip.

yesterday was also quite beautiful-i was helping mum cater at a wedding. i love weddings but it made me realise how perfect mine will have to be. then i went to the first elevate bbq for the summer. i would go as far as to say it was probs the best hangout ever. kia ora to that.

i wont give in

i have learnt alot about myself over the last week. good stuff and bad. i have been tested, stretched, convicted, and at times i want to give in and go back to where i started. but i wont. because galations 5v1 says: it is for freedom that christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by the yoke of slavery.
i went to a seminar with kathy king on saturday. it was beautiful. i learnt alot. about myself and others.
i havent felt so great yesterday and today. its unlegit.
buuuuuuuuuuuuuut only 6 more sleeps! im pumped.

hes in control.

God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble. therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its watersfoam and the mountains quake with their surging. there is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the most high dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at the break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
the Lord almighty is with us; the God of jacob is our fortress.
come and see the works of the Lord, the desolations he has brought on the earth. he makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire. "be still and know that i am God; i will be exalted among the nations, i will be exalted in the earth"
the Lord almighty is with us; the God of jacob is our fortress.
psalm46.

its amazing the humility that has been shown as individuals step up to help one another and do their part. and the evidence of Gods hand over our city is overwhelming. i wouldnt want to be anywhere else.

sevenpointone

this is carnage.
actually its insane.
7.1 on the richter. what. the. heck.
it is so unreal.
i woke up with stuff falling on my head. i legit cannot remember what i was thinking but i bolted down the stairs screaming.the definition of 'earthquake' has completey changed for me. haha the noise of the rumbling terifies me.
im sick of the aftershocks now. i hardly slept last night. and they say they could go on for four weeks. ahhh.
the damage in the city is crazy. and kaiapoi is a mess.
we had a joint service with majestic on sunday. cuuute.
anyways just gotta keep praying!
on a better note, elevate was AMAZING! two of my friends came and really enjoyed it. yeeaah roy.

three days.

after two days he will revive us; on the third day he will restore us, that we may live in his presence.

hosea.six.verse.two

i always knew that you should be expectant
but never really understood the greatness of the result....

until this weekend.
i got off the plane and god said "are you ready?"
at that moment i knew i would never be the same. ever.

as soon as i walked into the first session i felt god. every lyric i sang was significant.
there were four keys steps to my freedom:

1. stepping out
2.breaking through
3.destroying everything left
4.understanding why

honestly. i have never cried so much in my life. or been so happy.
all it took was three days with jesus.

sooooooooowaytarn...

all i can say is: God is a flippen legend

p.s. i don't mean as in fictional like myths and legends

i mean like a super, legit, ultimate, radical, swaz, ninja, mind-blowing, troppo, utlra mega foxy cool hero person.

like honestly he has given me the most amazing opportunities recently.

anyways im super pumped for conference.

its going to be so beautiful haha

ooo i have three cool stories

1. I was sick all last week and i wasnt going to go to school on friday but jesus told me to because he had a sweet opportunity lined up for me sooooo i did. then i went to project and there was this new girl there by herself and so i went and talked to her and invited her to elevate and now shes like uuba keen to come and shes gonna come to project and radiradira

2. I found a sweet new hous to live in slash its more like an appartment but its cool nevertheless.

3. I had a legit talk to the guidance councillor about church today and he told me to come talk to him in his office because he was "keen to hear more about it"

sooooo yea that was pretty beans.

umm what else???

im reading this legit book called captivating(chanks bek) again. and started crying in english while reading it. I looked like a fool buuuuttt hey its all good.

ive lost one of my school shoes. not calm.

i finally decided what i want to do after school praise jesus. its gonna be ssssuuuuppppeeerrrr swaz.

it all fits into place

wow wow wow
i cant even put into words how amazing god is.
getsmart was, just wow, jesus put all the pieces of the puzzle together and showed me the bigger picture. it was the first time i had cried since the week after camp. soooooo beautiful, in one sevice god showed me so many visions i had to sit down and draw them to remember them all haha then i got a bleeding nose........everything about getsmart was amazing.
cool story: during one of the praise songs god told me to go pray for nadia clark, after much hesitation i did and we ended up chatting for about 15mins. that was cool.
new favourite song:awakening. the last night was amazing-just when i thought the week couldnt get any better jesus comes and hits me in the face. haha i was on the altar crying, for ages. then when i open my eyes there was a beast picture of jesus in front of me. i gotta be honest i jumped, and just about screamed. hahah it was cool though:)
too much went on to put into words but lets just say;my life will never be the same again.

pancakes?

sooooo im currently stuffing my face with pancakes...so good.
1 sleep till getsmart-im almost wetting myself im so excited

this is just the start

well i have to admit it, i was flippen nervous on friday

but i did it

and loved it.

i hung out with jesus on saturday, he was just reminding me of all the things i am called to do. that was pretty cool.

so its like 6 days to getsmart, im just a wee bit excited mayby. slash i have to get sorted out for conference soon-eeeek. i missed out on $50 earlybird. dumb. oh well.

i hung out with rach tracy and ben in the offices yesterday, good times. then rach and i went for a walk and hung out in the rock shop. it was lol.

i think i may tidy my room today

that shall be good.

$2 day on friday.

these holidays are gonna be skux

....and this is just the start.

tag

im tagging god in.

this is troppo

well its been a long time

sooo what has been happening?

everything.

camp was beautiful

i cant even begin to explain how close god was

seeing people getting undignified before him

getting messed up on the altar

that is where i want to be forever

i love seeing teens on fire for god

god changed me soo much, gave me a new vision.

if i tried to explain everything he told me that weekend it would be like explaining 4 days worth of conversations.

he sparked a new fire in my heart

it was awesome hanging out with everyone,

haha it actual just felt real normal being there

conference will be amazing

since then i have been pretty good

god has blessed me over and above

school has been good, i feel like i walk with a new purpose, a new passion.

to think that i can make a difference in so many peoples lives...soooooo good.

cool story: im speaking at elevate next friday

so pumped

slash im not even worried about it, this is what i have been waiting for.

pixie came home yesterday:)

and ive enjoyed hanging out with ben heaps this week

getsmart=18sleeps

im preparing my heart now.

soooooooo hows life?

wow wow wow

this week has been amazing

God has given me a new revelation pretty much everyday

ive changed the way i view life

it is a beautiful thing.

broooo

elevate camp=6 days

holidays=30 days

getsmart=37 days

conference=69 days

christmas=203 days

new years=209 days

parachute=237 days

passionate.........................nah jokes im just being a gay now.

but i am super excited:)

i made cupcakes with annabelle yesterday, funniest thing in the world-even funnier than andy bell eating a chilli then pretty much having a seizure

she is beautiful i enjoyed hanging out with her

we established that i just do everything the most awkward way possible.

who would have thought putting hair straighteners in a bag was such a mission?

elevate last night was off the chain. tracy was amazing.

lifegroup afterwards was super legit as well

snort=hardest game ever

the last session of DNA was beautiful.

i started painting a new picture the other day, its kinda cool

xxx

go left, then go forward

flip God has shaken me more and more

i spent an hour in maths the other day crying. cute.

but its been good

young gunz was legit on friday!

annabelle and rico were flippen legends

i worked out my biggest fear:bussing

lol pretty sure the bus driver was crying the other day. shame

i realised that i live close to the most beautiful place ever

i heart christchurch city

cute

i think i might get baptized soon. it will be pretty swaz.
soooo pumped for getsmart bro
unite is coming up super fast.

BURNSIDE WON STAGE CHALLENGE.

skux deluxe.

i'm getting excited

BROO i'm super excited...
unite.
elevate camp.
getsmart.
conference.

huhlow oh man its gonna be good.

God has blessed me soooo much this week. he is so good.

cass engler is a skux. looking forward to our lil birthday trip in june.

i miss bek burke

praise the lord.

....the Lord your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
he will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing....
zephaniah 3v17


God is good
life is good
i am good

the Lord restored my joy.

i am free.