i love that i dont fit in anywhere. that i can't be contained to a 'group' or one circle of friends. i have never had my homegirls; buddies that will 'stick together forever'. i have never been able to attach myself to one particular bunch. i like that there are no constraints on who i can be friends with.
i like that i don't have one really close friend that i will talk to forever about anything, but i have many people i can talk to about different things.
its given me trouble at times. the devil tries to use my individuality against me and tell me that i don't belong anywhere.
but above everything, i keep jesus close. i belong with him.
i can have any amount of friendships here on earth but my heart was designed to be in close relationship with the Lord.
he fulfills me like no other friend could.

anyway, i have always preferred single flowers above bunches.

C is for conference.

when you come out the back of an incredible weekend like the one thats just been, there are sooo many thoughts that can run through your head.

i had only one expectation for conference and that was for God to reveal himself to me in a way i had never experienced before.
i have had so many massive jesus encounters that i almost, in a way started taking them for granted. i got frustrated on the first day of conference because i thought thats what would happen again just on a bigger scale. but when i didnt get that massive 'boom' moment i realised that Jesus had something else in mind. my God is the God of surprises and instead of doing things the way i'd always experienced, he did indeed reveal himself to me in a whole new way.
he came to me like a subtle whisper, always there, always speaking. i just had to choose to press in to him.
it was beautiful.

wellington legit always brings out the psycho-ness in me.
i think it is the combination of being somewhere different and being with great people.
इ had gone to a whole new level of crazy on the last night. seriously, i was scared of myself.
i was blessed to be surrounded by such beautiful people.
i miss my wellington family so much already.
jo weatherhead=fox.

my last post has so many grammatical errors but i cant be bothered changing it.
hashtagjustsaying.
my blogspot is currently doing strange things and turning all my writing into arabic.
see: फ़फ़्फ़े३४
haha.

IM SO PUMPED FOR CONFERENCE
for more reasons than the obvious

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three things i pray

i have changed a lot since getsmart. its funny, i almost feel like noone really knows me anymore. i spend a lot of time by myself these days. i love it, god is preparing me and critiquing my ways. its truly great. in the last couple of years i've had to put aside a lot of what i love in order to chase after God. however it comforts me to know that he knows the desires of my heart, in fact he created them. in his time, he will take me back to what i enjoy most. and it will all be for his glory, not my own. i went to watch godspell on saturday night. it is definitely in my top 3 favourite musicals. it was beautiful. the cool thing is, the whole script is legit straight scripture. even though the people reciting it didnt fully understand its full power, the word of the Lord is living and active and is currently being declared in my school in front of hundreds. i cried the whole way through the second half. i couldnt stop thinking what it actually would have been like for the disciples at the last supper, let alone jesus. i'm actually listening to the soundtrack right now and even now my eyes are welling up haha. i'm so pumped for conference. i am yet to write down mt expectations but when i do it will be brilliant. i remember last year i wote them on the plane and as soon as we landed god started speaking to me about some of the stuff i had written down.

I AM PUMPED.

p.s. call me a gay but im definitely a sucker for a good bruno mars sing along.

to see him more clearly.
to love him more dearly .
to follow him more nearly.