lets be honest here, these last couple of days have been terrible. i'm trying not to take for granted the fact that my house is 100% in tact, my family is safe and all here with me and that i had one of the least traumatic experiances.

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we went and bought gumboots on wednesday. ive become quite attached to them.

i am gutted about the cathedral.

i never knew someone could have so much love for a building

....am i weird?

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i suppose what saddens me most is that the beautiful city i used to love walking around, will never be the same again.

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at this stage, im loving the people of nz and all around the world for that matter. selflessness is vital in circumstances like this.

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"no act of kindness is too small"

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big ups to bob parker and john key. mad respect.

is this even a blog?

i sat here staring at the editing box for a good twenty minutes, deciding what to write, whats too much, what would be lame and whether i should do one at all.

cool story.

wahs with jesus are my fave.

they have become a more regular occurance.

at camp i asked god to show me things through his eyes, something that i pray often but this time i really meant it.

its been hard. carrying a burden is not easy. i always look at people now and feel an intense sadness come upon me.

they are god's children too.

living life on the edge is good. im at a stage where, to get to where i want to be, i actually have to trust god with everything.

its definitely uncomfortable.

funny story: actually jokes i dont have one.

haha

the green beast is coming.

and it is more than just a tractor.

what if everything god said was true?

dont judge me, i know that is just basic christian knowledge but actually. its a great thing to ponder.

lolponder.

right now, i wish i could do more. but its not my business.

spectating is not a fun sport to play.

i enjoyed valentines day. it was cute. i think i could do that for at least five more years.

haha.

i like children. they carry something special.

turn this ditch into a well.

hashtaglovinglife.

facets like diamonds.

Jehovah Shammah

The Lord is there

The Lord is my Companion

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Jehovah Rohi

The Lord is my Shepherd

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Jehovah Mekaddishkem

The Lord who sanctifies

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Jehovah Tsitkenu

The Lord our Righteousness

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Jehovah Nissi

The Lord is my Banner

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Jehovah Jireh

The Lord who has already provided

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Jehovah Rapha

The Lord who heals

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Jehovah Shalom

the Lord of Peace

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Jehovah Saboath

Th Lord of Hosts

The Lord of Armies

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Jehovah Gmolah

The Lord who has payed

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Elohim

The all powerful Creator

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Adonai

My Great Lord

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Yahweh

"I am"

The one who is

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Immanuel

God with us

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El

The strong One

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El Elyon

The God most High

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El Roi

The God who sees me

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El Shaddai

The all sufficient one

God Almighty

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El Elohe Yisrael

The God of Israel

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El Olam

The everlasting God

100%

i will give

onehundredpercent.

i had a cute time at school on friday. when i was driving in i was amping myself, getting pumped for an amazing day. but then i guess i allowed myself to be shaken. i got my timetable and literally freaked out. i knew no one in my classes. i guess thats what you get for choosing to go to a school with 2700 students. sneaky jesus though put people in all my classes that i had been praying for but never really got the chance to get to know. im pumped that i dont know anyone, means i have to be stretched. but in the moment it was overwhelming. i honestly just felt like crying, not because i had no friends but because i felt small and powerless.while i was having a wee wah at lunch god started reminding me of things that had been spoken over my life, things that fitted directly into this situation. i walked into art and sat at a table of girls i had never talked to before. then cass came in and sat next to me. she started talking to the girls about church. i got so excited. her confidence and faith gave me confidence and faith. god told me exactly what he wanted my themes to be for my portfolio, i am pumped. when we started planning all the girls were asking me what i was going to do. great opportunity. even the teacher was drawn into the conversation that followed. it was an incredible moment.

elevate was beaut. i had never seen it like that. everyone just carried it.

pumped for 2011.

ps i miss dancing so much.

i read sam fortys blog 'to bike' the other day. then i read wendas when she said thats how it felt when she painted. and i realised thats what dancing was like for me.

to dance, is to escape.

"don't you just love god?"

wahahaha.